Making Space for Yourself

I've spent a hell of a lot of my life trying to minimise the space I use up, both physically and I suppose mentally (and you could even argue emotionally but that's a whole other can of worms to save for another day).

So this is me making space for myself, that is, until I'm comfortable enough to do it in public too.

I used to be body positive, but a traumatic* event left me riddled with guilt and disgust with not only my body but who I felt I had become or should have been. I created monsters in order to process and cope with how I was feeling, ones that have transformed themselves into demons. They are now simply too heavy to carry anymore, so I am beginning the process of disembarking them, one by one I will face and overcome them. If I don't I'm not sure how much longer I can endure it, so I have to.

This is mostly what this blog is for, a physical space in which I, a fat girl, am making for myself in a world that has thus far tried to degrade everything that I am. I am going to unravel everything I think I know about myself currently, in order to rebuild my foundations.

If you want to know more about self-growth, fat positivity and surviving mental health, then I suggest tuning in here with me. Cos I think we've got a lot to learn.

Tayla x

 *I was trying to think of another word for traumatic, feeling that I wasn't deserving of that label. But what else was it but traumatic if it left me completely different?